- Read 50 books from my list of books to read by the end of August
- Lose 50 lbs
- Be able to do 25 push-ups
- Learn Spanish
- Travel By Myself (which I am doing later this summer)
- Write fiction and non-fiction and take it seriously
- Use the Dermaroller, Tria and heal my skin
- Impress my bosses by doing excellent work in both my jobs
- Start a book-life blog
This School Year (by the end of December 2014)
- Learn to drive
- Do the road test
- Get License
- Get a parking spot and drive to school and work everyday
- Take care of my skin everyday
- Use Tria as much as possible
- Read at least 2 non-academic book/month
- Increase the amount in my savings account this summer by 20%
- Have at least 400 friends on Facebook (= 50 more friends = be more social)
Physical/Health Goals:
- Lose 75 lbs
- Learn to do a handstand
- Learn to do a cartwheel
- Be able to do 50 push-ups
- Join a proper hip-hop/Latin dance class
- Run a half-marathon
- Run a full marathon
- Look into plastic surgery for nose/face texture
Really wanna:
- Learn French
- Learn Spanish
- Write a children's book
- Learn to skateboard
- Learn to swim
- Get tattoos (or at least a tattoo)
- Save money for Europe
- Travel to Europe with a group of friends
- Live on my own
- Play guitar for old folks at the hospital
- Travel by myself
- Go to the airport with a packed bag and fly somewhere spontaneously
- Ride the Orient Express
- Tour India properly
What it's all for:
- Help my parents retire
- Fall asleep with someone in a field of flowers
- Go for a midnight picnic
- Dance in the rain with someone
- Live my dreams instead of dreaming my life
- Elope
- Listen to my heart instead of my fears
- Stay positive in the face of adversity
- Have friends who understand me
- Dirty dance in a club with a nice, cute boy
Academic/Work goals:
- Write books
- Write fiction and non-fiction seriously
- Publish books
- Get Phd
- Start my own tutoring business
- Attend Oxford University
- Study (almost) everyday and become a good researcher
- Be a respectable researcher and known for my intelligence
- Make it to the front page of my University homepage for winning top honours
- Get a master's and get PhD before 30
- Win scholarships to pay off my loans
I want to figure who I am and what I believe. Not to get too existentialist but I often found myself at parties or amongst friends and family last year, wondering: exactly where do I fit in? Do I agree with what this perso is saying or am I just agreeing for the sake of it to please them or to remain non-judgemental. I find myself shying away from giving my opinion. When I cam back to school I felt "right" again, like this is where I belong, and these are the people who understand me and help me feel like myself. Amongst my family friends, I felt out of place and always a little uneasy, like I was walking on eggshells and being judged harshly for not being likeable enough or fun enough. So, I want to strengthen my sense of self and identity. I'm not sure how I do that but I just want to feel resolute in my voice and my actions.
Last year I decided that I would say yes to more things and that mostly worked out quite well, I met new family and made new friends, realised that some people really liked my company. I was able to extend my networks and I hope to do so again.
Since I started effexor I hope that I can reign in my fear and anxiety. Most importantly, I have realized that I fear doing more than one big thing at a time because I don't believe that I can do two or more things well, but isn't that growing up and adulthood? So, again, this year, I want to prove to myself that I can lose weight while being in school (with a very flex schedule) and start practicing driving again in March or April once I've returned from another family trip and accomplish these goals on my own time and pace. My way is rarely right but I know myself and my speed. I know that if I do it in my own unique way I can succeed.
I really want to start dating this year and just get out there, romantically speaking.
